Unspoken truths and desires of an alternate time
You approach me like you always do, but something different happens today. Your lips hover over mine for the slightest distance, I feel the forces between that gap like the forces between two magnets that are so close to each other you can feel the space between them trying to close desperately. I begin to resist but you hold my arms tightly over my head and push your body against mine cornering me against the wall. Your chest is rising and falling fast to the beat of your heart, you are nervous. Your amber eyes are wild and still, staring directly at my dark eyes like a lion watches its prey about to pounce. You keep glancing at my lips; the tension is making you crazy. I don’t want to kiss you because it wouldn’t be right, but in this situation, who can resist? just enjoy it for what it is. I look up straight into your eyes with a look that can melt an iceberg. I’m still struggling against you but it is because of nervousness and tension. I bite my lower lip and look at yours; youre still an amateur. Still staring into your eyes I lean in slightly and run the tip of my tongue against your lower lip ever so slightly, teasing you. You give in.
Your lips meet mine in a collision of two different forces, hot and cold. You don’t know what to do so I lead. Still unable to move my hands or body i tiptoe slightly and suck on your lower lip slowly with a lingering taste of passion. Our kiss gains speed and intensity, your lips yearning for more press harder against mine with a hint of uncertainty and desperation. Ignore all feelings and thoughts and simply take in the moment.. Your hands loosen the grip on my arms to run your hands down the curves of my body. You hold my face in one hand and my waist in the other as my hands run down your chest. I turn you towards the wall and close the distance putting a leg in between yours to misbalance you and gain control.
I grab your hands and put them behind your back, interlacing my fingers with yours and closing the gap between our bodies., my hands let go of yours and embrace your neck bringing your face closer to mine while i stare deep into your eyes. your eyes look astonished at what is unfolding in front of your eyes. I know that this is wrong but enjoy the moment now while you still can, think about it later.
Your body is trembling against mine, getting hotter, you are about to say something but I interrupt with a kiss. We kiss with slow and hard kisses for a minute and then I go for a deeper kiss. I slyly introduce the tip of my tongue into your mouth only slightly to tease of what is to come. I greet your tongue with mine and slowly massage it with mine with slow soft motions. My right hand cupped behind your neck and my left hand grabs your hands and place them on my lower back. Your breathing is heavier, I can feel your passion, while I am still perfectly relaxed and haven’t been fazed with this encounter. I press my body against yours and I hear a slight moan come from your lips. Hearing you moan makes my body get the chills, but it feels good. I bite your lower lip pull you roughly to me, your lips sweetly locked to mine. I remove my lips from yours and look into your eyes mischievously and yet they are emotionless as if the kiss had not affected me at all though my lips greatly enjoyed it. I smile teasingly and read your eyes, like an open book. I can read you perfectly your eyes full of different emotions and thoughts.
You’re trying to read me but it is futile, You are unsecure and doubtful of what we shared, you want to know what it meant because you werent expecting me to comply, but you wont get that answer from my eyes. I see lust, fear, love, hate, confusion, hope, despair, uncertainty and happiness in your eyes. I hold your gaze not letting go of your eyes and have a silent conversation of unspoken words. You drop your gaze and a guilty expression appears in your face. There should be no guilt in your eyes, we all have desires unfulfilled that will come to light one day. You may have initiated a nonreciprocal kiss, but I would rather kiss and give you some joy for a moment, fully knowing nothing will ever come of it, than showing you no emotion at all, because deep down inside I care.
Enjoy the kiss for what it is. Don’t regret it. A kiss can mean a thousand things and can be used to speak what we feel without uttering a single word. Our body can speak better than our untrained tongues can ever do.
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